Frankenstein's Bride

Dazzled and bedraggled. A few of the things milling around...

I ordered a toy camera. If you have a recollection, it's one of the diana-ish plastic-lensed cameras from the 50s on. The novelty is that the body and lens, being cheaply made, allow tiny bits of light in, which gives an unique and unpredictable quality to the end result. It'll be a nice departure from digital perfection and convenience. I'm even thinking of getting a film changing bag and processing my own black & white.

I am absolutely disinterested in sex. I haven't touched myself in months, much less been touched by another. I don't say this to elicit pity (or offers). It's just a statement...the last thing on my mind is sexual physicality. Mental chastity. I just really considered this while reading a post about the test of submission yesterday. The winning test was this:

Comply with this command:
From this moment forth, live a chaste life. Never let another person touch your body. Never touch another's body. Never touch yourself for pleasure. Avoid pornography, erotica, titillation. Dress modestly and conservatively. Have your hair styled in an unflattering way. Eschew cosmetics, jewelry and pampering. Avoid thinking, talking, reading about sex. Eliminate all contemplation of dominance and submission, and all other psychological and physical forms of sexual expression. Become asexual in all ways you can think of. Do this, to honour my domination.

I will gladly attribute this asexuality to a rather selfless dedication to submission.

I have the distinct and unsettling feeling that I've forgotten something very important. I keep finding myself walking into a room and standing there for a moment, lost in trying to remember that thing that is just at the edge. My dreams are this way, too.

Why don't dogs have visible navels? You can feel them, but you can't see them. Both humans and dogs are attached to the uterus by umbilical cords, so why do ours turn into bellybuttons while dog versions are only a weird little bit of scar tissue just under the skin?